a compromising situation.

had my 'sit-down'.

so different than anyone expected, and surprisingly, emma helped me make the 'sit-down' much more comfortable.

it was not a conference. we got there, baring baby gifts and chocolates. kim had prepared banana bread and we shared coffee and small talk. (i tend to note of what kind of coffee drinks people enjoy most and how they take them, i think it says a lot about a person in a general sense. and each of us took ours very differently, and fittingly so.)

after, we played with the babies for more than an hour.

(and jesus christ, these girls are going to make the most outrageous get it, grrls deutschland has ever seen! i love it. i love it!!!!)

anyways---i ended up having one on one time with both astrid and kim. which was ideal. emma and i decided it was silly to have so many opinions at once, and it really gave me an opportunity to be much more candid, open, genuine, whatever. and it made me feel better.

i don't really know if we have a consensus yet, and i found out i have much more pull than i thought with astrid. also, i found out that emma was super happy with how i handled the situation later in the evening. however, over all, things are still fuzzy. i told astrid how i felt in regard to that how this really is, at the end of the day, a "business deal" of sorts. which she agreed completely and felt the same. and i also told her that the personalness? is that a word? makes it difficult to handle, and thus is unlike any other business deal. she finishes my sentences alot, which is refreshing. i also think that we are all understanding people. and that is sucks we're just trying to be fair to everyone.

later i talked to kim. i explained to her that everyone has made some kind of sacrifice in their own right (primarily emma and myself) and that she has yet to do so and needs to get on it. i was very upfront with her about everything. and honestly told her how it was. that she needs to tweak her ideal situation, because all of us have... and it's not fair or equal or whatever that she has not.

i could say so much more, but this is the general idea/overview.

kim and i are getting together this week for dinner to speak further.

and, oktoberfest on thursday night.

oh manz.

ohhh manz.

-tg