hodge-podge.

sitting on my window sill, watching the evening close.

so so so much. i've not been here more than a month and a half...

i'm quitting my job come early 2009. moving to the city to live in what will probably the shittiest apartment of all time and work in a cafe or bar.

i'm already looking for jobs. the one place i've asked was super nice and very interested. but i told them i didnt want to start until after i improved in german and most likely after the new year. they were espeshially pleased to hear this. gave me their card and all information and asked me to come back when i felt i was ready and they will see what they can do. this made me feel really great. i was so scared... but it hasnt happened yet. and this was only one place. but i'm a very determined leetle americana.

the other giant, GIANT obstacle is finding the aforementioned "shittest apartment of all time" to live in. housing in munich is supah expensive and hard to find, even in the out-skirts. so i'm looking for a shared flat. a plus though is, when i will be looking for a place is the most ideal time. if i look now, everyone is looking because university is just starting. and if i look in april, it's high season. so january-febuary is ideal.

i'm leaving because while i'm a good nanny, i'm not so good at living with my employer. it makes me awkward. i don't feel welcome, even if i am. i can't walk around in my underwear. i feel like i have to ask to do anything. well, everything, really. i feel like i'm being judged if i stay in my flat while they are home during my "off hours" (whatever that means.) and i feel like i'm being judged if i'm down stairs with/around them. so its all a giant catch-22. at home, i had no curfew or rules or anything. and technically i don't here either. but i get some suurrriousss "stink eye" when i come home later/early/whatever. i could go on, but this is a very general over view.

i guess in a smaller nut shell: i'm so happy here when i'm not "at home". and i'm "too independant" for this. i'd rather work a shitty job and have a shitty place. i'd know exactly what i was getting for the hours i was working. i know when my free time is. and i can walk arond in my damn underwear.

the countryside splendor will be greatly greatly missed in all seriousness. but i can always visit.

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i'm currently in possesion of an engagement ring.

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i went out to a wonderful latin dance bar in munich. i latin danced to latin music. had latin drinks. but no one else did. haha. <3 germanz. whenever i go out with alexia people stare at us so funniez. i did dance with a german who was so awful he was fantastic.

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my german friend i met in mexico last spring and i have been e-mailing back and forth. he lives in berlin, so when i go i want him to showw meee arounnnd. he's probably the nicest person in germany. anyways, his english is really funny. and whenever he emails me i always laugh even though what he is saying isnt funny, but this one especially caused serious giggle "I DONT LIKE X-MAS BECAUSE ALL OF PEOPLE BEEING CREAZY LIKE IN MADNESS AND THIS SHOPPING-ECSTASY...."

god! i love it!

also, when i was in mexico, i wanted to order scambeled eggs, and i didnt know how in spanish. so i tried to explain to him in english. but he didnt understand. but after several minutes he said "oh, you are liking the eggs moved."

yes, i am liking the eggs moved. porfavor.

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there is a hot air balloon out side my window right now.

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i went for a bike ride today and saw jesus three times. pictures soon.

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thank you to everyone who has been writing. it makes me so happz.

LIEBE GRÜßE!

-tg